Day 60 - So Many Deadlines, so Much Negativity

I am nearly burned out.
These past few weeks have been particularly hard for me. I haven't had a proper 'weekend break' since the start of April when I was at home. It seems like every single deadline for assignments and exams have been happening to me all of a sudden. To be perfectly honest I am not coping well.

I have an exam and a Japanese presentation tomorrow. The presentation I am quite prepared for, however I don't think I will be able to remember what it is that I have to say. We are allowed to use cue cards but reading straight from them will mean that we are capped at 40%. The exam that I have is an English grammar test, easy right? You would think so, but I am very doubtful.

On Wednesday I have a mock interview for which I have to prepare a 600 word summary of a particular material I used in one of my past lessons and have adapted. I am currently having a mini freak out because I don't think I even have anything that fits the criteria. Without the material...I wont be able to get my teaching qualification this year.

On Thursday I am travelling home to Cambridge to go to the doctor. For that reason all of the deadlines that are at the end of the week have now been pushed forward to Wednesday. A Chinese portfolio task I have to complete that would be in on Thursday evening, and a Chinese speaking exam that would also be done then both must be submitted/done on Wednesday.
A 1500 word assignment (+lesson plans, feedback, materials etc) that should be handed in on Friday must be handed in on Wednesday at the latest.

I am slowly losing all motivation and wanting to lock myself in my room and ride the storm out alone.

But every now and then I find myself looking at pictures of Pandas

And my husband (Haruma)~ Just knowing that these two perfect things exist is enough to remind me that there is more in the world than my university stress.

Day 59 - Why I Love Jolin Tsai

Well, allow me to show you a few things


If you follow me on twitter, you would have seen that I shared this video:
不一樣又怎樣 We're All Different, Yet The Same

Just watch it, the song is beautiful but watch the video



Then there's this one
I'm Not Yours (ft. Namie Amuro)

AND THIS ONE

第二性 Gentlewomen

ALL FROM THE SAME ALBUM.

She is beyond perfect.

But seriously, check out her recent album Play (呸) there are so many good songs on there....ughhh I just love her so much.

Day 58 - Present From China

Over the Easter holiday, some people in my Chinese class went to China. I didn't go because I will be going to Japan for a year so I need to save my money~

My teacher brought back some snacks from Beijing~

She also brought back her 7 year old son...who was adorable...I very nearly took him back home with me. But kidnapping it kinda morally (and legally) unacceptable.

Day 57 - I READ THE MANGA

Guys. Guys. Guys.
I've just seen Doushitemo Furetakunai.

I feel like I've hit with the nostalgia train. I'm remembering watching my first few BL movies and that feeling I used to get when I watched the cute fluff scenes before I was hardened (excuse the pun) by the hardcore explicit stuff.

If you read the manga recommendation post I made a few days ago you will know that I read the manga a looooong time ago.
I re-read it to make the recommendation post, and then again as I was watching the live action the second time. The film and the manga are so closely linked it was fabulous.

Remember when Junjou Pure Heart kicked us in the feels with their live action remake featuring the beautifully adorable Rakuto Tochihara (aka a husband of mine)? I got the exact same feeling with this film.  Not because it was "the best film ever" but because you could see that the directors didnt just strip it down to the basics but they actually kept it pretty close to the original manga. I don't know about you guys, but I love that.
As I was simultaneously watching the live action and reading the manga, you could see how it was nearly word for word the same. Umf I loved it.

                                                      

In the first 10 minutes!

Okay it's really hard to visually represent how similar they are in one post...if I knew how to gif...I would. But you get the idea!

Compared with the manga, the film was very sweet and innocent...no graphic sex scenes, a film for the whole family~  Ha~ I wouldn't.
Not saying that the manga wasn't sweet! It was~ but remember, this ain't no fluffy-ass-shōnen-ai THIS IS YAOI! Where we have graphic scenes in abundance~ We're drowning in graphic sex scenes. Oh god imagine....

Speaking sex scenes, there was something very Takumi-kun-esque about them. Seriously, the nostalgia is real with this film.

I'm going to bring back Junjou Pure Heart again. Remember the kiss scenes in JPH? I just read that post back (dear lord it needs updating, I sound like an idiot) and I love how I pretty much said "It wasn't the best scene I've seen" when in actual fact I meant "MAAAAN IT SUCKED" in the nicest way possible.

Although the kissing scenes in this film weren't bad, per say, they were just...cautious.  If Shima and Togawa were kissing or being intimate in any way the camera recorded from far away, "are you guys even touching?" I would scream at my screen and that just annoyed me. Vary your angles god damn it!
Oh there was one scene when the camera got all up in Shima and Togawa's face, and that was when Shima was crying and Togawa was shouting at him, it wasn't a scene I'd personally go all close up with. But hey, I'm no cameraman or director.

I don't know guys I felt like this film was a little slow, which I find really weird because the manga was so fast-pace and interesting. I guess it's a different representation of the same story. Idk.

Kousuke Yonehara is the very same Kousuke Yonehara from COCOA OTOKO OMGGGG
 I was staring at his face for the first 20 minutes thinking to myself "where have I seen you before? WHO ARE YOU?!" Then I gave up and did the cast list and oh my goodness crying clouds it' him. Kousuke Yonehara. The One.
Why did Cocoa Otoko have to disband?! I loved them so much.
I'm now listening to Cocoa Otoko...the heart breaks slowly for the millionth time.

What is it with the Cocoa Otoko guys and BL live actions? Kousuke Yonehara in this, Kenta Kamakari in Princess Princess D, Kei Hosogai in Takum-kun 2...that's 3 out of the 5 that I know about...

Why did I rate it a 6?
Well...I feel like these numbers actually have  pretty heavy baggage, to be honest I just kinda throw them away haphazardly.
Let's examine what the numbers effectively mean
1-4 : I didn't like it that much
5 : It was okay
6 : I liked it!
7 : I really liked it!
8 : OH I really really liked it, borderline love, yo!
9 : omg tie me to a chair i'm flailing with looooove
10 : *unconscious with love*

I don't like to go below a 5 and 8 means "I loved it" so that means I have 6 and 7 to play with!
I gave Takumi-kun 1,2 and 3 a six!
The numbers don't mean a lot ahaha ^^;;

Okay I'm done here! If you haven't read the actual post on [InsertNameHere] then  it's HERE
Have a lovely day ❤️️

Day 56 - Cat Lady

I mean I like cats as much as the next person..

I wasn't looking exclusively at cats....there were dogs and hamsters too.....

Manga #21 - Doushitemo Furetakunai

Hi~ Yep this counts as Day 55~


Title: Doushitemo Furetakunai / どうしても触れたくない / No matter what, I don't what your touch.
Author: Yoneda Kou
Genre: Drama, Slice of  Life, YAOIIII



Basic Plot:
Shima has just started a new job, in the elevator on his first day he meets a seriously hungover man. That man turns out to be Togawa, Shima's new boss.

"Tough Togawa seemed rude and crass, but Shima was drawn to the kindness beneath his rough facade. Both men harbored a painful past, but unlike Togawa, who was open with his feelings, Shima seemed unable to move on. What will these awkward feelings bring "

(x)

My Thoughts:

I read this manga for the first time years ago (...when did it even come out?) and I loved it.I love both the main characters so much. Shima is so cute, and Togowa is really quite hilarious. Both of their backstories are tragic and heartbreaking.

THOSE SEX SCENES THO!!!

haha I feel like I say that with every many I recommend~ I love me some sex scenes~ 

Yoneda Kou's style isn't a style I usually like, but it didn't bother me.

Please read this manga!!! If you've never read yaoi before pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase read this one at least!

P.S
Yes...This is a hint at a certain summary that will be posted on a certain someone's certain BL film summary blog.........I mean wat

Day 54 - La La Laaaa

My life so far includes watching people build houses on Sims 4, sending pictures of naked/partially naked dudes to my friend and wishing I didn't have to go back to university in a few days all while I'm pretending to write this assignment.


I hope you all had a really nice Easter or weekend~


Some lovely person sent me a message today, I don't know if you will read this but thank you for messaging me I really appreciate you asking if I'm okay ^^

Day 53 - Home is...

I'm having a hard time concentrating on things, I think it is because I'm no longer by myself. My older brother is home because he hasn't found a job yet and my little brother is home because he is also on Easter holiday like me.

I think I prefer to be alone and work.

Also my phone is broke.
Remember back in January I dropped my phone and the screen cracked? Well, my dad said "Oh that should be easy to fix!" so now that I'm back for Easter I've entrusted it to him to fix

He broke it even more

I don't even know how he did it but as he was taking the cracked screen off, he didn't do it carefully enough.

So I have no phone -.-'''
curse you father.