Day 45- NO CONTEXT

I'm trying to plan my lesson for Wednesday (let's hope people actually show up this time...). I'm teaching grammar...AGAIN //internal rage//

I've been given a tiny tiny section in the textbook to do with "articles" (definite and indefinite particles) No context. Just exercises.
HOW am I supposed to plan a 50 minute lesson about ARTICLES without ANY CONTEXT to put it in?!?! HUHH???

I swear to god I hate this textbook.

-.-''

Day 44 - How Do You Know What That Tastes Like?

" How Do You Know What That Tastes Like?" is something I hate hearing. HAAAAAAAAATE.

If I say this sandwich tastes like a dog's butt dipped in expired chunky-ass milk THEN THAT'S WHAT IT TASTES LIKE.

You dont need to be a genius to work out that it tastes really bad. It's pretty damn obvious.

If I say that a certain drink tastes like an angel penetrated a rainbow goat and gave birth to a fluffy marshmallow love child then that is relatively a good thing, and the drink tastes really good!!!

Don't ask me how I know what that tastes like. Of course I've never drunk a fluffy marshmallow love child who's parents were an angel and a rainbow goat . But it's evident I ENJOYED THE GODDAMN BEVERAGE!!!

Fucksake -.-''

Next time someone asks me how do I"know what that tastes like" I will drown them in a vat of milkshake.

Day 43 - Heard It Through The Grapevine

I just watched episode 1 of Korean drama Heard It  Through The Grapevine.
If you were wondering just how much drama you can fit into 1 hours worth of drama the answer is  HELLA.

I swear to god. THEDRAMAINTHISDRAMA.
There was literally so much packed into it, I had a really hard time functioning.

The problem I have with korean dramas is that there are many many episodes and usually they're relatively long.
A bit like Taiwanese dramas- dont get me wrong I love watching them. But...I don't have a very high level of commitment.
I find that (romantic) Taiwanese dramas generally throw random 'extras' in that no one really cares about just to fill an episode. Oh great! She has a cold and he is telling her to look after herself! Wonderful! However we already established that he is a caring guy within the first episode...no need to spend the next hour hammering that home. WE GET IT!

From  what I've seen, Korean dramas don't have  random scenes like that in....they're just too long for me, 20 episodes on average....I've lost interest around episode 10.

Japanese dramas however....usually have 12 episodes. They get to the point and still have relatively well developed characters.
I do love a good Japanese drama~
*cough* Haruma *cough*

Going back to the actual point of this post.
Heard It Through The Grapevine  looks really good, I'm not sure how long I'll stick with it....but Lee  Joon *swoons*

Day 42 - Year Abroad Choices

Hi~
I'm still relatively annoyed with blogger.

Also when day 50 comes I'll take a break from daily posts, I've got a lot of stuff going on in March so...come April, daily posts will return~

I handed in my university choices in on Monday...and I'm genuinely freaking out. I found out that two other people chose my university for their 1st choice.  If they get there and I don't I will honestly break down and slaughter them both.

Basically we have a list of Universities in Japan to choose from, we have to select 5. Now I want to go to my second choice (which is  Hokkaido) but when I was thinking about it I kinda figured that I wouldnt want to spend a whole year there....I'd must rather go to another place and just visit Hokkaido. Which is why I'm praying that I get to go to my first choice.

Just tell me now if I'm going there universityyyyyy pleaaaaaaaaaaaase~

Day 41 - Just In Case

On the 26th February my blog [INH] will have been 3 years old. Quite a long time to have a blog for I think~

Buuut blogspot, naturally had to ruin my "Nearly 3 Years Old" buzz.
I got a notification when I logged in to blogger this morning that said :

Basically it said that any blogs that have sexually explicit/graphic nude images on will be made private.

I'm not saying that my blogs contain sexually explicit content, because I'm certain that it doesn't. But 2 years ago I received a notification informing me that I had "infringing content", whatever that means. And blogger removed the "infringing" posts, and notified me that if I had anything else that that "infringed" blah blah blah my blog would be deleted. I don't even remember what the posts were infringing anyway -.-''

So now I'm concerned that if blogspot somehow manage to find 'explicit' content then my blog would be deleted. I've already got a warning under my belt.

I'm certain all I have on there is topless men...that's not explicit..! ....right?

So!

I have made an executive decision to move my posts to wordpress as 'back up' JUST IN CASE~

Once I've sorted the layout and whatnot I'll start posting links etc ^^

Have a great day everyone~

Day 40 - A-Z Of Me

A -  Art~ I really like to draw

B - B1A4~ My babies

C - Coffee~ A recent discovery and me likey

D - Dramas~ I freakin love dramas

E - English~ A language I hope to teach

F - French~ A language I've studied for 10 years

G- G~ A nickname I had when I was younger thanks to my little brother

H - HARUMAAAA Miura~ My husband.

I - [InsertNameHere]~ My film blog

J - Japan~ Hopefully I'll study here for a year.

K - K-pop~ I used to love, these days not so much~

L - Laina~ My name

M - Messages~ I love receiving messages from people ^^

N - News~ I don't read the news, well...I do, but not in depth because..basically

O -  Obsessions~ I looooove a lot of things/people.

P - Piercings~ I like to pierce my ears myself

Q - Quiche~ I hate quiche....like scrambled eggs in a PASTRY wtf man

R - Rena~ another name I'm known by

S - Spanish~ a language I've studied for 9 years

T -  The Hobbit~ (and LOTR)

U - University~ Where I'm studying now

V - Versailles~ A band I adore

W - Watchseries~ A website I use to watch tv shows etc.

X - Xenophile~ I'm not sure if this is considered a negative "obsessive" thing, but learning about different cultures is fascinating ^^

Y - Yaoi~ Yaoi is my life.

Z- Zin~ My little brother who also has the same name as Jupiter's singer~

Day 39 - 新年快乐!

大家好！

新年快乐! 羊年大吉!!

Hello everyone!

Happy Chinese New Year! I hope the year of the Sheep will be very lucky for you~

I've been meaning to renew my passport because it expires in March(!) so I had planned to go and take photos after my class at 9am.

I did my face, did my hair so that I could  easily clip it out of the way when I needed to. I looked fabulous.

QUEUE RAIN

My entire look was destroyed. I looked like a foot....a serial killer's foot.

This always happens to me!! The last time I had to get my passport photos taken I was 14 and I was so sick the photo actually looks like I'm dying.

I hate passport photos. That 'no smile' face is not my natural face, and the fact that you "must show your ears" Well screw you passport people!!  My ears don't stick out enough for you to see them! And the fact that you want me to remove my glasses annoys me too....to quote Velma from Scooby Doo "I CAN'T SEE WITHOUT MY GLASSES". I can't see what I look like when the picture is being taken so I don't know if i've moved my head out of the circle thing UGHHHHH

Anywho I need to pack my stuff because I'm going to celebrate my mother's birthday~

Have a lovely weekend everyone~

Day 38 - I Didn't Teach

Today was the day I was meant to teach, but there were no students.
Because every time we teach we are assessed we need to have a minimum of 4 students...none showed up.

So my lesson has been postponed until April~

I won't be able to post  for the next few days because I am meeting my family as it's my mum's birthday on the 20th~
So enjoy my silence!

Manga #20 - M Nano? Baka Nano? Hentai Nano?

HI! DAY 26~
This post has been in my drafts folder for...a really long time! I think August 2014 sometime...idk
Anyway I'm posting it now!
(the remainder of this post is 100% August 2014 talk, no comments have been added/removed)


It's  been such a long time! Over a year since I last wrote a manga recommendation, what am  I doing with my life?
It's not that I've not been reading manga, because BOYYY have i been reading manga! I just haven't had the time to sit down and think "why am I recommending this?"

Title: Are you a Masochist? Are you an Idiot? Are you a Pervert?
Author : Nishihara Keita
Genre: Yaoi, school life, comedy



Basic plot:
http://luffynotomo.livejournal.com/] When Aizawa was little he used to enjoy being a bully and picking on Hidaka. Due to the bullying, Hidaka moved away. And once Aizawa went to high school he made a vow to himself to never bully anyone. Oh, no! who is this new transfer student! It’s Hidaka! Hidaka hasn’t or shall I say, can’t forget Aizawa. Hidaka has been looking forward to this reunion for years. Hidaka asks to meet Aizawa after school and the first thing he asks is for Aizawa to bully him like he did in the past!? -

My Thoughts:
SO CUTE. SOOOO CUTE. LEIKSRSLYSOCUTE
Sure the "mature man falls in love with high school student because he's freakin' adorable" thing has been done plenty of times in yaoi manga but hot damn it's like sweet and sour chicken - I AIN'T NEVER GON' GET TIRED OF THAT!

I really love Ruri Fujikawa's art style! I think I have a new name to add to my favourite author/mangaka list !
Please read this manga, it's so sweet - I hope you like it!!

Right....I now need to continue packing for university...



^ LOL
really informative 'thoughts' there...seriously though it's a good manga~

Manga #19 - Toshigoro no Otoko no ko to Are

Yes this does count as a day 19~


Title: Toshigoro no Otoko no ko to Are
Author: Sakyou Aya
Genre other than yaoi : SMUT, School life, Comedy

Basic Plot
During the Spring holiday Sakurai Keisuke is in his room having a little "alone time" when in walks his friend Shinnohara... there is more to tell, but I'm not going to share it with you!!! aahaha!!! You're just going to have to read it yourself~
It's incomplete...but mahhgawd it's worth a read!

My Thoughts
SAKYOU IS MY NEW FAVOURITE MANGAKA , I have decided
Remember the recommendation way back in April 2013? I recommended Kuroneko Kareshi no Asobikata and I said

"....I think I may read more from Aya Sakyo!!"

I HAVE. AND I AM IN LOVE.
Sakuraga Mei, sorry but you're going to have to move down to 2nd place.

School Life and Yaoi are my favourite combinations, in you've read my recommendations before you'd know this, so it's really no surprise that I love this manga so much
The art style is literally my favourite manga style ever.

I was thinking about buying hard copies of yaoi, and I want my first ever bought yaoi to be special so I dont want to buy something  like  Junjou Romantica. I want it to be specialllll.
If only I could find this online I'd buy the hell out of it...regardless of price IT'S THAT GOOD!!!


Day 19 and Manga Recommendation #19 complete!!

Day 10 - Things My Friend Said Today

"You look so dark today....like mysterious...that's badass"

"I like your top BECAUSE YOUR BOOBS LOOK EPIC AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"

"I know we're talking about bodies in general, but my mind just keeps going to vagina"

"Why are cabbages even a thing? What good comes from them?"

"If we dig deep enough maybe we can find your lost dignity AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!"


I swear to god -.-''''

Day 9 - Oh Dear

皆さん！こんばんは！

Japanese speaking exam COMPLETE! It actually went well~

I told the teacher, who was examining, that I studied Chinese as well as Japanese and said that Chinese is more difficult than Japanese. The teacher then went on a bit of a rant about the differences between Chinese and Japanese writing..during my speaking exam....my exam...that I'm getting ASSESSED on...!

Ah well, that's what you get when you have Robaaaaaato-sensei

He also asked me what a hobbit was....because my vocabulary is some what limited...I literally told him "a hobbit is a short person"

He asked me what an elf was...and I said, you guessed it  "an elf is a tall person"

I am so sorry

I'm so so sorry

Day 2 - Boring Lessons and Aquatic Chibis

Hello

I'm feeling less than perky today.
I got a call from my friend at 4am today and she pretty much broke down on the phone, so I was up all night chatting to her. I wont go into it here because that's between her and me, but because of  that I was totally exhausted and didn't go to my morning class. le sigh.


The evening class however, is really...really boring.
It's a research method class for my dissertation which I wont be doing until my final year of university. But it is a requirement, so I have to attend.

Unfortunately, I know which is being taught because I learned it at Sixth Form when I was studying Sociology and Psychology.

So here's a photo of what I get up to during these insanely boring lessons;

please excuse my writing

中国 here I come!

Heya everyone!

Things have been pretty crazy of late. You know what, I feel like all I do on this blog is give excuses of why I haven't been posting on the other blog.
Okay it was like two times, but still, two times more than it should have been.
This time I have a pretty damn good reason!
I am going to China tomorrow ! Well, technically today because it's now 1am... (Tuesday 8th July) I'll be there until the 28th August.................it's gonna be hella hot ;_;

I'm so excited...and so insanely nervous, I've never traveled outside of Europe by myself before and I don't know how to airport.

I've been stabbed many times these past few weeks, getting injections against all sorts of stuff that  if I contract would kill me...so that's pleasant.
I had to get injected against five different diseases (or whatever) and had 3 doses of each.......so I was stabbed a total of 15 times. I had dead arms for nearly a week and then had to get stabbed with another dose....it was really intense :(

Because to get into China, like most places, you need a Visa. The university, who was organising the trip, was also meant to sort out the visa application and send it off.
I've had problems with my visa because the lady at the university that was meant to apply for it, and had all of my documents since I left the university town on the 13th May....did absolutely nothing. She had my passport, letter of invitation, my completed application and some very awful photos that had to be taken, she had everything needed for sending my visa application off to the embassy to be processed....of which she did none!
So I get a call two weeks ago from the other lady who interviewed me  (way back in March) saying that they cant send my visa off to be processed because the company they use needs 2 weeks to process...and by that time it would be too late!
Obviously at this point I'm freaking out because if I dont have the visa...I can't enter China!
So I had to go through the process myself, I had to drive up to the university town, collect my documents, come back home, wait until Monday which was the nearest appointment I could get, drive to Manchester, give in the application, come back home, wait a few days, drive back to Manchester and receive my passport with the visa page inside.
Easy, right?
WRONG!!
I got a call on Tuesday (after I had given in the application) from the same lady as before saying that Charlie, the other candidate, has had his application rejected...and because of this they might reject mine.
Soooo...in case this happened we would need to reapply to I had to bring with me copies of the previous documents.
Roll on visa collection day.
VISA SUCCESSFULLY RECEIVED!!! YAAY
Charlie received his a few days later.

Once I had the visa I could finally prepare properly for the trip.

I realise I haven't told you guys what I'm actually going to be doing in China.
WELL, I have a job as an English Teacher. I'm going to be doing conversation classes with groups of children from ages 6 to 14.
Some of you might know already, I'm studying TESOL at university and I really want to be an English teacher so this is perfect for me. I'm so lucky I was accepted ^^

Anyway, if you dont hear from me for a while it's because I've probably melted.
I'll be documenting ever single moment of my life because CHINA!



TL;DR 
I'm going to China, I got stabbed and it hurt, the visa application sucked but I have it now, I'm so excited!

Kamijo ヾ(*^▽^*)ノ

The fact that Kamijo (aka the love of my VK life) follows me on twitter just blows my mind

Don't believe me?
go to my twitter! insertlemonhere


Still don't believe me?
Here's a screenshot

Loooook! it says FOLLOWS YOU!!

STILL don't believe me?

Well, I'm not sure what I can do to convince you...but I don't care because Kamijo follows me on twitter.

Now I'm terrified he'll unfollow me

People making assumptions about my life

I dont deserve this.
I am in no way predictable.






but yes I did have chicken for dinner
and have done for the past 19 years....

*drools*

What did I eat for dinner?!!?

About 6,000 of these little tiny tiny peppers~~~

Aw, so cute!!!

(∩❛ڡ❛∩)

Things I Have Learnt In My First Term At University

Today is the last day before the Christmas holidays and I'm currently waiting to be picked up by my mummy so I made this list! Ohh so very list!

1. I do want to become an English teacher.
   I've enjoyed the first semester so much I am so glad I decided to take a TESOL course.
   
2. Teaching presentations aren't as terrifying as originally thought.
   So much satisfaction when you do a presentation and everyone is actively participating and the feedback is positive!
   
3. All the cute guys seem to have girlfriends
   Did they come here with girlfriends?! Or did they manage to find them within the first few weeks?! Where was I when the girlfriend choosing ceremony was taking place??
   
4. I'm at the point in my life where I dont want a boyfriend....I deserve one.
   I do....honestly.
   
5. Japanese is both easy and difficult.
   I don't even know.
   
6. Living with 4 boys is easier if you have brothers.I don't care about the noise and the occasional messy kitchen as long as they shut up at some point and clean up when they've done.
   
7. I listen to too much Chinese music
   Now people think I can speak fluent Chinese...which is a compliment (along with my favourite "are you Chinese?" But because they think I'm Chinese I can translate the foreign posters for them.....in short: I can't
   
8. I feel super guilty when I miss a lecture.
   Because of that I've only missed one!
   
9. I can only eat a bowl of cereal and a sandwich a day.And i still survive...it's all about timing... (tell me this 6 months ago I would have laughed in your face)
   
10. No matter how nice you are people will still talk shit about you.Imagine hanging out with someone who you thought was your friend when in actual fact they don't like you and they are talking about you. It makes you question yourself. Am I annoying? Do I behave in a way that makes people not want to hang out with me? What have I done to cause this person to do this to me?
    After spending the majority feeling like a valued member of a friendship...then moving to university and placing your trust in someone else only to find out that this person doesn't even like you it the most heart breaking thing I have ever had to experience and I would not wish it on my worst enemy.
    
11. Sometimes the only thing that can get you through the day is knowing that when you get home you can go to sleep and for a few hours forget everything.

It has been a long time hasn't it?

Wow, my unannounced break lasted a month on this blog and nearly 2 months on [INH]..So what have I been doing that caused me to abandon my blogging duties for nearly 2 months?!

Well my lovely friends, I have actually moved to University!
All that talk and it's actually happened! I moved up here on the 15th September and started my classes on the 23rd. As most of you know already I'm studying Japanese and Teaching English (TESOL) I'm also learning Chinese..as something a little extra~

I'm living in private accommodation because University Halls didn't want me .*sobs* (or because they didn't have any space...idiots)
I'm sharing with 4 guys and 1 other girl, we all share a kitchen and this living space thing...
as you can see below ;)

(One of those rare occasions when the kitchen is actually clean..!) - the kitchen bit is behind that breakfast bar thing

In my room i have a fabulous desk, bed and a few shelves I've stuffed folders/food/books/food/cactus in and I have an en suite bathroom OOHHHH

[view taken from shower]

[ohh you can see right outta this room ehehe]
[I'm sat on the desk taking this photo...]

 The city is quite nice, but it's nothing like my home town~ Being here makes me realise how much I like Cambridge! I never thought I'd say that but seriously...Cambridge is super pretty with all those old buildings hanging about. This city is similar, only less old, more northern ^-^
That sounds like i'm complaining...I'M NOT COMPLAINING I PROMISE!

~*~.~*~.~*~

Now that I've shared all of that stuff, I'd really like to apologise for just disappearing for 2 months without saying anything...the last time I left for a long time I declared hiatus - So I'm really sorry.
[InsertNameHere] has been doing really well in my absence. I really appreciate that you guys have been visiting that blog, reading my summaries and taking part in the poll.
The polls actually help me get to know you guys better and see what else I can do~ forever example in the most recent poll a lot of you said that you watch Anime, so now I'll be doing more yaoi anime summaries! If anime isnt really your thing then I would strongly advise using the "Follow by Email" function at the top right OR following the blog on Twitter, that way you'll be notified about FILM/DRAMA summaries rather than anime summaries :)

Manga Recommendation #18 - Kuroneko wa Shippo de Amaeru

Oh I am on a roll with these manga recommendations! This manga is so good and is in desperate need of frequent updates!

Title: Kuroneko wa Shippo de Amaeru
Author : Ruri Fujikawa
Genre: Yaoi, Romance and AWWWWW!!!


Basic plot:
Cute high schooler Kazuya rescues a weak cat but because his mother is allergic to cats, his neighbour Sakaguchi (an author) offers to take in the cat causing Kazuya to visit his house ever day.
One day Kazuya suddenly confesses to Sakaguchi - who thinks it was just childish nonsense. But Kazuya's awkward confession seemed cute to Sakaguchi....dun dun DUUNNNNN!!!

My Thoughts:
SO CUTE. SOOOO CUTE. LEIKSRSLYSOCUTE
Sure the "mature man falls in love with high school student because he's freakin' adorable" thing has been done plenty of times in yaoi manga but hot damn it's like sweet and sour chicken - I AIN'T NEVER GON' GET TIRED OF THAT!

I really love Ruri Fujikawa's art style! I think I have a new name to add to my favourite author/mangaka list !
Please read this manga, it's so sweet - I hope you like it!!

Right....I now need to continue packing for university...

Manga Recommendation #17 - Koi ni Nare!

I realise I posted a Manga Recommendation only 2 days ago but I just read this manga and it is just so fierce!!

Name: Koi ni Nare!
Author: Tsukimura Kei
Genre: Yaoi,  School life

Plot Summary:
"Komatsu Shin was shaken when he was found out to be gay, but his roommate Nakajima was unaffected and arranged a blind date for him. However, the guy who showed up was actually the dorm supervisor, Shindo-sensei!"
(That is a pretty accurate summary, so I just went with it~)

My Thoughts:

School life + Yaoi = Happy meee!!!

3 chapters in and there hasn't been much 'physical' action, but I am expecting great things from this manga! 

Nakajima is a wonderfully thoughtful friend - I love him~

Komatsu the type of uke I can deal with - he's adorable, realistic and so very angsty! I love him!

I also love Shindo-sensei because he's a seme with morals and although he is a flirty little cheesepuff, he is yet to push Komatsu down because of his responsibility as a teacher (not sure how long that'll last though!) 

So, yes...Shindo-sensei is fabulous, I love all the characters in it and this manga needs to hurry up and be updated because I'm crying without it.

In the meantime READ IT!!!~

Watching 'Insidious' While Talking With My Friend

 

Manga Recommendation #16 - Gosan no Heart

Name: Gosan no Heart
Author: Ogawa  Chise
Genre: Yaoi, School Life

Basic run down:
Miki doesn't take love seriously because if he does it becomes tiresome "he treats love like a game" using girls as he wishes. One day he overhears Udou unsuccessfully trying to reject a girl and steps in declaring that Udou belongs to him " But what starts out as a way to relieve the boredom of daily life quickly becomes serious.."
OHHH!!!

My thoughts:
Firstly with School Life and Yaoi being my favourite genre combination ever I had such high expectations for this manga. and I was not let down!!
The art is wonderful and even though the story line isn't exact original it's still so sweet and definitely one of my favourites~
It's delightfully hot and funny.
Do you guys remember the "Ferris wheel sex" that appeared in Junjou Romanitca and how delicious it was?Well this manga has one tooo! It was so hot I'm not even mad that it's not original ehehe

also yeaaa I know being attracted to a 2d character is socially unacceptable but Udou's brotherrrrr... *drools*

Anyway:
READ IT! please ☆(◕ω◕)

So, it seems I'm an adult

What have I been doing with my life these two week I hear no one ask.
OH WHERE DO I BEGIN~!

Nah, I'm just kidding, I haven't really been doing a lot. After receiving my results from the exams that I worked my butt off studying for...I am going to university in just under 2 weeks!
How insane is that...?
Actually thinking about it, it's not that insane: a load of people go off to university/college every year, it's not a big deal, but it feels so strange to me that I will be going away...it's like I've reach a major milestone or something. I always thought I'd go to university but now that it's actually happening...it's a little surreal.

At the moment I have been busy preparing to live away from home, my parents seem more concerned than I am about the whole thing - which is strange because my older brother is studying in a different country (Okay..he's studying in Scotland..) and I'm going to be (depending on traffic) 4 hours away, so it's not like they haven't been through this before.
My mum has been giving me all sorts of food tips, asking me what I'll be cooking ; what I'll have for breakfast, lunch and dinner saying things like "Laina what do you think you'll eat everyday?" like I'm meant to plan every meal I have for the next few months (...assuming I'm going home for Christmas ehehe).
My dad just wants me to learn self-defence. He said to me "I expect you to call us on the first Friday with news that you've joined a self-defence class" to which I responded that there was no need for me to take a self-defence class because the chances of me being attacked are very very low considering how I don't plan on leaving my dorm room. Needless to say he wasn't too impressed with this remark and went all "ohmygod can't you be serious for once" on my ass.

Due to the fact that I won't be living at home, I'm going to have to buy my own crap from now on. No more "I'll just put this in the shopping trolley while my dad is over there getting bread and hope he doesn't notice when we get to the scanny thingy" and that is the story of how my cherry coke addiction started...
ANYWAY, because I have to buy my own food I needed to set up another bank account and sort out internet banking. Unfortunately for me, as someone who hates calling people, all of this needs to be done over the phone. Even though I had to ask the lady to repeat herself many times because I had no idea what she was talking about and I couldn't hear her because my family is too loud, everything is sorted and I have cards that magically give people money in return for food and things.

Something that has recently become painfully clear to me is that: I'm going to have to make friends.
Now, I'm not the least sociable person in the world, in fact I go out with people quite often. The only problem I have is that I find talking to new people such a chore and the awkwardness when you're trying to get to know someone unbearable.
I've had my group of friends for a while now; out of that group the friend I've had the longest I've known for around 9 years, the ones who I was 'closest' with I've known for 5 years. My point is: I've known these people for such a long time 98% don't actually know the real me and now I have to find new people, be nice to them and hope they like me.

Speaking of which the whole "making friends" situation could be quite problematic because I've decided that I'm no longer going to hide my true self which I've been doing for nearing 10 years out of fear that those people would no longer like me. Behaving the way you think people want you to and constantly worrying that if you were to show your true colours they would reject you - it's tiring.
So I will drag myself out of the perverted closet and parade around screaming my love for dramas and BL films, yaoi manga and "foreign" music and hope to god there is someone out there who likes someone like that...if not, maybe now it the time to accept my fate of being alone forever.
Oh wait...I still have my parents.

So, to summarise, what I've been doing these past few weeks: preparing to live and study away from home like a good university student and hoping that once I muster enough courage to be myself people wont hate me (...I've always been watching a hell of a lot of dramas with Haruma Miura in because I love him)

At the end of these long text posts I usually put a few photos...but honestly I haven't taken a photo in a good 3 weeks...oops!~

Things I Like #3

[this post has been sitting in my drafts folder for a good 3 weeks, maybe it's time to release it into the wild]

~*~

You know what I haven't done in a while?!
A THINGS I LIKE post.
tragic isn't it?
Well I'm not going to do that, I'm going to talk about important issues like-
Naaaah screw it, I am going to do a THINGS I LIKE post

So here we go!~
THINGS I LIKE  #3

• Lemons - they will always be at the top of my list
• Coconuts scented/flavoured things
• Yaoi - Yup that's never going to change
• Ryoma Baba - again, never going to change...that man is too far in my heart, he's not going anywhere.
• Japanese Doramas.
• Haruma Miura -  that man is super pretty and has become my current obsession
• Thranduil (Lee Pace) - from the first moment I saw him on screen back in December 2012 I loved him. 
• The fact that it's summer and it's not boiling hot
• Curly hair. I feel like curly hair can make any person instantly cuter. It might not work for me...i know I may not LOOk cute but at least a feel cute o.O
• When I go on Sims Freeplay on my phone and my sims AREN'T DYING. Which is like never. Gah they're so needy.
• Srsly, Japanese doramas.
• Comments (not gonna lie, I'm like 95% thrilled and bouncing off the walls and 5% terrified)
• Emailing my friend who is 15 years away in India....I miss you bro </3
• Oh what I REALLY LOVE is being ignored by my friend who's gone back to China //heavy sarcasm// Screw you I DON'T NEED OUR FRIENDSHIP EITHER *whispers* I miss you 
• Emailing my OTHER more RELIABLE friend who has also gone back to China. 
• Re-watching BL films and realising how biased I was (/maybe still am.)
• Mosquito nets. OH MAAAYN I LOVE MOSQUITO NETS!! I could never open my windows in the summer because I was constantly terrified of spiders getting in (seriously whenever I opened them a big ass 8 legged beasts waltzed right in) but now that I have a mosquito net NOTHING CAN GET IN!!!! I've had my window open for 2 weeks now xD
• Did I say Japanese doramas? ehehe

Extra Feelings - Boku no Kareshi wo Shokai Shimasu

Boku no Kareshi wo Shokai Shimasu

(Hii~ For all of those who came over from the original post on [INH] I'll start with the reason behind the rating and for anyone who cares random thought commentary is down below it. )

Why rate it 4/10?!

Well, I mentioned what I liked about the film in the original post. I really like films that are set in a school or university, I'm not sure why but it's my preferred setting ^-^

I have to be honest here, I feel like I reacted very badly to this film - or at least not in the way that I think was intended. It's quite sad because I know that my 15 year old self would totally have got a kick out of this film with its adorable kissing scenes with a little bit of soft core sex thrown in, but right now I can't look past how unrealistic some of those sex scenes look.
I'm going to exclude the 4th story from this statement and to some extent the 1st story, because I really enjoyed the love scene of the 4th story and the 1st story's scene wasn't too bad

But for me the second and third story's sex scenes were a bit...off. The second one wasn't awful, in some parts it was actually alright, but it had that awkward part where they were 69-ing and their heads were in the wrong place and at one point the camera was at an awful angle and I'm pretty sure I saw Taiki sucking fresh air. The 3rd one had the same problem, Shun was meant to be 'servicing' Eiji but his mouth looked like it wasn't doing anything, his hand was there pretending to hold Eiji but it was painfully obvious that he wasn't doing anything like that.
Yes I understand that this is acting and they're not expected to have full on sex with each other blah blah blah but..just changing the angle of the camera could have made these scenes so much better and frankly, just believable.

If those scenes were taken out (or redone) I would definitely have enjoyed this film so much more and I would even rate it 7/10
I think we could have lived with a few kissing scenes, couldn't we? (≧ω≦)

*~.~*

Random Thought Time:

For the record: it get's embarrassingly weird from now on:
Story 1
Okay we've got a student here. Shohei? Shuhei? Shouhei? Someone say this guy's name clearly so I know what he's called PLEASE!
I'm going with Shuhei.
Shuhei hears something through the door. Sensei is having inappropriate fun times with a student, wahey!
Is this Shuhei's girlfriend?
Sensei is pretty and invites him in. SENSEI IS SO PRETTY.
the room is unnecessarily large and empty
massage? Do school doctors give massages?! I should have visited our school doctor more, oh wait...we didn't have one.
Did he just ask him if he has a girlfriend
UWAAAH SENSEI INAPPROPRIATE TOUCHING THIS IT TURNING INTO A JGV
oh, is that it?
NO THAT'S NOT IT!
HENTAI SENSEI!!!!! HENTAI HENTAI HENTAI!!!

I'm going to assume that Shuhei was sexually frustrated because he now seems happy with his girlfriend. Thank you Sensei for helping him out *thumbs up*

Story 2
Shinji is quite cute reading the newspaper at breakfast like he's a 40 year old salary man.
EHHHH!??!?! Why is everyone naked?!!?!?!
oh they're not really naked, it's just Shinji being pervy ahaha
all the girls are clothed but all the guys are naked, how delightfully homosexual of you Shinji
he's just waiting for him on the bed. Completely naked. Even though he's not naked. But he's like on the bed naked.
UWAAAH SHINJI IS ATTACKING TAIKIIII
JGV JGV JGV JGV
*moaning from both parties*
TAIKI TAIKI SHNJI  TAIKI!!!!! SHINJI!!!!

Story 3
UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH SHUN WAS WATCHING BOKURA NO AI NO KANADE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I could recognise that film even if I was blindfolded, tied to a chair with headphones on.
Something about making a film...something about girls....girls are making excuses. Conclusion? Eiji is making a film he needs a girl but they girls don't want to/can't appear in it.
Now Shun is wearing a dress pretending to be a girl. I do love crossdressing, it makes me so happy.
OHH I'VE SEEN THIS SCENE BEFORE - a long time ago!!
Eiji just told Shun he loves him
and bit his cat ear
and then his real ear
OMG HE WAS WATCHING BOKURA NO AI NO KANADE
I'd just like to point out the inconsistency, Shun is watching the film at the start of this story: he's watching the part where Maki is having sex hardcore  BUT at the end of the story when Eiji lifts the laptop screen we see Maki kissing Ruiku....in Bokura no Ai no Kande this scene comes like...5 minutes before hardcore sex time! Which makes me think that either there was some flashback scene I cant remember in BnAnK or the film replayed itself. But to be honest, I think it's safer to assume Shun and Eiji are time travellers.

also...did anyone else laugh a little bit when they found out that Eiji pretty much just filmed himself having sex. AHAHA!!
I feel like a lot of you are going to be staring blankly at your computer screens so I'll just tell you why its funny! Eiji = the name of a JGV actor. 
shh it's funny in my head

Story 4
Souta is worrying about Valentine's day? That's okay bro, I worry too. I worry about all the cards and gifts I'm going to get and how I won't have anywhere to put them all. Jks, no one sends me anything. *sobs*
Kouki is like super popular and Souta is completely in love with him
I think is where Souta and I differ, if Kouki asked me to help him with his bags I would be like "dude, you don't need help! those bags have handles, you could carry 7 in one hand" and then tell him not to be so lazy...of course now I can see why I don't get the guys and Souta does...hm..
Ohhhh I do not like leather sofas, sure they look good but they are so useless. We have leather sofas in our house and these are what's wrong with them 1) in Winter, yo' ass is frozen. 2) in Summer, yo' ass gets stuck. 3) Every other occasion, you move a bit and it starts making fart noises which is just embarrassing. 4) you try to prove that the sofa made to fart noise and not you but the sofa is 100% against you and refuses to cooperate thus making everyone think you farted. 5) Have you ever tried sleeping on those bastards? Yeah it's all rainbows and butterflies as you're going to sleep but you wake up sweating like a beast and then have to peal yourself off it.
Sorry this has turned into a serious rant but nothing is really going on in the film, Kouki only gave Souta a present just now so...we're not missing much
NOOOOOOOOOO NOT THE CAKE!!!!!!!!!
Your uniform is dirty...perhaps you should take it off.
Don't look at me like that, I'm just being practical.

annnnd roll those credits, OHH PICTURES!!! I'm stealing them ehehe xD

It's not 'obsession' it's infatuation mixed with devotion

こんにちは!~

Recently I've been really getting into Japanese doramas. Well, to be more accurate - I'm becoming more and more obsessed with infatuated by Haruma Miura.

It's quite a funny story about how I first came to know about his existence. Actually, it's not that funny...
A while ago I became curious about JGV and it wasn't until January (I think) that I decided to watch some videos - an action that I don't regret at all. One of my favourite actors is called Haruma, he's the cutest most sweetest guy ever, after watching all of the videos of him I could find I went to tumblr and looked at the tag - y'know, reblog some .gifs and all that.

While I was enjoying the  Haruma Tag I noticed that there wasn't just the wonderful JGV actor there was another beautiful man. I became enchanted by his warm bright smile and gorgeous hair and decided to google his fine ass.
I found that he's in a drama called Last Cinderella that was currently on tv in Japan (this is April time btw) So I promised myself that once I complete my exams I would watch this drama.

FAST FORWARD TO 12TH JULY.

I watched the first episode and became one hundred percent devoted to it, and more importantly, Haruma Miura.

Now because of my love for Haruma I decided I would watch EVERYTHING he's ever done...which seems to be quite hard because a lot of the old stuff is damn hard to find. Damn you internet.
But I've seen and fallen in love with the drama Samurai High School. SWEET HONEY GLOWING JAM THAT DRAMA WAS GOOD.
I'm going to watch a film Kimi ni Todoke which....it's quite funny...again, not really...

FLASHBACK TO  JULY 2012
...One of my really good friends (who has now abandoned me to go back to China which I'll probably complain about in a separate blog post) sent me a link to this film and told me to watch it - it was one of those multiple part ones - I watched the first part but because it was quite late and I had to go to school early the next day I didn't watch the rest....it seems I never had the chance to finish it.

FLASH FORWARD TO LAST WEEK
Now I realise that the film my friend sent me was KIMI NI TODOKE(!!!) and  I'm kicking myself because had I watched the film LAST YEAR I would have had more time to love Haruma.

It's like, say that you really like lemons...I mean you REALLY like lemons and you want to show your love to the lemons by eating them everyday. You want to appreciate the sexy sourness of the lemon by licking the fresh, juicy tangy centre for the rest of your life.
Then you came across a time machine hanging around in a street somewhere, you travel back in time to 30th July 2012.
Now you have 1 extra year to devote yourself to this delicious fruit of kings.
Do you guys see where I'm going with this?

Anyway, I love Haruma Miura. He has now become ones of my favourite Japanese actors, tying of course with Ryoma Baba. Speaking of whom, Baba-chan needs to do more dramas and films I'm feeling lonely without his perfect cheekbones to stare at.

I'm starting to go public with my love of these two men. I watched Samurai High School with my little brother and continuously told him that Haruma was the most beautiful being to ever walk this earth whenever he showed up on screen. I also shove my phone in his face and force him to tell me who the man is with a face carved by angels who is currently my background (Baba-chan btw)

Please excuse me while print out a butt load of pictures of these beautiful men and plaster them all over the walls of my bedroom while sobbing quietly about how perfect they are.


[P.S - I dare not imagine what would happen to my heart if these two guys were to appear in a drama/film together...oh sweet monkey balls *hyperventilates*]

A Story of My Childhood

Let me tell you a short story.
10 years ago I was 8 years old. I was in primary school, in the UK when it's summer and you're in primary school you usually spent 1 afternoon a week swimming. We would spend around 3/4 of the time doing skill practices and then the rest of the time playing games (water polo etc.) then at the end we would all line up at the side of the pool so we could get out in an orderly fashion...because this is England yo.

ONE SUNNY SUMMERS DAY IN JULY IN THE YEAR 2003 we were lining up ready to get out of the pool. I was the last one in this line. Because the kids in the pool are primary school children and they range in height, the pool is pretty damn shallow so even at 8 everyone could stand up and the water would only just go past their waist (on average). So I get bored of kinda floating in the water waiting to get out...so I stand up for a bit and I feel this sharp pain in my right foot. I was like "dafuq is that!?!?" so I look down expecting to see some giant jellyfish or something - y'know because I'm 8, but I don't see anything so I resume floating.

When it's my turn to get out of the pool I step up onto the ladder and look down at my feet...I notice A BUTT LOAD OF BLOOD on the steps. So I'm trying to work out where it's coming from...so I lift up my right foot and sure enough...It's pouring out of my foot.
The teacher is pretty concerned, gets my towel from the changing room and then wraps it around me..the pretty cool thing about this part is that I totally got a piggyback from one of the teaching assistants WIN.

The next few hours are a bit of a blur all I remember is that it hurt so badly but I totally took it like a boss and did not cry.

Next thing I know I'm in hospital with my mum while this doctor stabs my foot with a big ass needle and then yanks the huge piece of glass out of my foot, of course at this point I'm thinking is pulling the bones out of my foot it hurts so much (Numbing the area my ass IT HUUUUURT)
So to make a kinda longish story a little bit shorter. I stood on a piece of broken glass in the school swimming pool and my foot hurt like hell.

Why am I telling you this I hear you reluctantly ask.
Well..yesterday I was wandering around my kitchen where my mother dropped a glass earlier in the day.
You guessed it.
I stood on ANOTHER piece of glass.
This time I didn't got to hospital, my mum calmly removed the huge piece of glass (I'm not exaggerating this time...it was pretty big!~) out of the heel of my right foot. Oh sweet mother of god it hurt so much!!

The reason why I'm telling you all about this is that it's  pretty damn weird that the first time I got glass in my foot was 10 years ago in July and the second time THE SAME FOOT (sure a different place...) THE SAME MONTH.
10 YEARS APART.
Which makes me think....
a) Is this just some freaky coincidence as said up there...?
OR B) IS THIS SOME CRAPPY 10 YEAR THING SO WHEN I'M 28 I'M GONNA STAND ON A PIECE OF GLASS AGAIN AND POSSIBLY DIE BECAUSE THAT'S USUALLY HOW THINGS GO??!!

Oh T.T

Now that I've done story time...It's photo sharing time!
Woo!!~

I was reading my driving theory book and this beautiful lady showed up

30degreesC today and I was in town sweating my ass off.
Cloudy but give it 2 hours and that happens //points to next picture//

"I wandered lonely as a cloud..."

I downloaded The Sims on my phone - probably the best decision I ever made.
but anyway, these two sexy bros are totally doing it while this guy watches a movie HOW PERFECT IS THAT~ I laughed a lot longer than is socially acceptable :D

Theme Park AND crappy quality videos!!!

Theme parks are pretty fabulous places, I don't know about you guys but I love roller coasters. On Thursday 3 of my friends and I went to the Theme park called Alton Towers. It took us over 2 hours to drive (my friend drove and we stopped for a break a few times), he picked us up at 7.30/8am and when we got there just past 10am. I rode shotgun..if anyone cares ;)

When we got there it was kinda sunny, 2 of my friends had these voucher things which got them half price but in the end we had to pay something like £98 to enter this theme park. DATS A LOT OF MONEH.

We got a map and wandered around, we saw that the new ride The Smiler had a queuing time of 3 and half hours so we decided to wait until later in the day because the queues would have died down a bit...or so we hoped.

We went on some swingy ride thing...it was kinda cool except these tween girls decided to push in front of us so we had to wait until the next ride, I swear one of my friends was so close to beating the crap out of them. She gave them death glares and hoped that their safety harness thing would loosen a bit...not gonna lie, this concerned me a bit ahaha.

Anyway after we finally got on this ride and got swung around and turned upside down - my hair went crazy by the end - we moved on and joined a queue for another ride...Oblivion I think(?) we were there for around 1 hour and half before it started to rain and we were a long way from getting on the ride.
My friend turned around and saw that one of the cart things was actually stuck...on the track. Moderately freaky.

It got to around 2pm and we were so bored of standing in a line that wasn't going to go anywhere and because the line close at 4pm and the queue time for The Smiler is probably still around 3 hours like before.
Sooooo my friends and I cut out of the line and waltzed towards The Smiler.

We spent a grand total of 3 hours and 42 minutes waiting in the rain before we could go into....y'know that part where you're so close to being able to go on the ride you can taste it? Like you're centimetres away from the cart...waiting until it's empty? IT TOOK US 3 HOURS+ TO GET TO THAT POINT!
We should have been pissed off....but we were actually really excited.
The ride was epic!!!!!

I would say the wait was worth it but...no. No ride is worth waiting over 3 hours for especially if it only lasts a few minutes!~
But after we got off we were all buzzing, we decided to go on another ride!

We saw 1 ride that people were still queuing for so we joined the line.
As we were nearing the front...we saw a lot of people leaving. I asked this guy what was going on and he said that there was a problem and they're waiting for a technician which could take up to an hour.
There was a formal announcement saying that they're trying to get the ride working again. My friends and I discussed whether we should leave and forget about it or wait it out. We decided to wait 20 minutes and see what happens.
Luckily enough in around 15 minutes the ride was up and running again ^^

Things that annoyed me

We went on Thursday. Thursday is a week day. Children go to school on weekdays. WHY WAS THERE SO MANY PRE-PUBESCENT CHILDREN WANDERING AROUND? Go to school!

We spent 7 hours at this theme park and went on 3 roller coasters. I think we spent 10 minutes in total actually ON A RIDE.

SO. EXPENSIVE.


All in all. The road trip there and back was much more fun ;D I rode shotgun on the way there and on the way back I gave my position to my friend so I could sit in the back and talk about dramas, films and drag queens with my other friend.
GOOD TIMES!!!

You know what they say "Photos or it didn't happen"
HOW ABOUT VIDEOS?!!! ;D

Extra Feelings - Eternal Summer

你好 my schmooshy lemons
Today we have the Taiwanese film Eternal Summer..or 盛夏光年, or Shèngxià Guāng Nián

So let's begin.

Reason behind my rating is at the bottom

Eternal Summer

★★★★★★★ out of 10

Commentary
[1.05] Sweet jesus what happened?!
[1.34] In case no one noticed...this is a memory ^^

[2.26] Projectors!! Who remembers those!

[3.12] Jonathan is a good student
[3.30] Way to traumatise a child Shane..good job

[4.10] I know this song?!!! How do I know this song?
[4.48] That's cute.

[5.23] That is also cute. Guardian Angel...naw
[5.47] I still can't get over how smart those things are...to put your bag at the side of your desk, we had to put ours on the floor, THAT IS SO SMART

[7.02] And that...is how to make friends :L
[7.55] Now...I personally don't think this is an effective way of teaching but...whatever :)

[8.49] We're in High School now guys and Jonathan is laaaaaate! Jesus Shane you're so noisy!

[9.46] Kinda wish I went to this type of school because I know for a fact that I would be on of those girls who would hang around watching the guys play basketball...just a little creep :)

[10.24] SO CUTE
but....are you just going to leave that? Seriously?!

[12.26] Can the people at the back even see her?

[13.09] It's sweet that Jonathan is fixing her hair
[13.39] NO skipping school is bad! lol look at me preaching to you and being all hypocritical, like i've never skipped school xD

[14.45] Ear piercing? Okay. Yeah it's kinda cute.

[16.23] Look at that nervous look on his face! I think he knows what she might be insinuating

[17.26] Porn...? Seriously? Way to make everything more awkward Carrie!

[19.40] And at this moment I knew that I loved Jonathan - he's so pure and genuine. He can't fight his true feelings as much as he tried he just doesn't feel anything for Carrie. Now I sympathise for Carrie because she must blame herself or think that something is wrong with her because Jonathan reacted like that and not the way she expected.

[20.28] Is it that easy to sleep in class?! //sobs// I wish!

[24.31] I love Shane but he's such a tit.

[27.28] At the risk of using the same adjective over and over again: CUTE!

[28.49] Straight to the point...love it.

[34.08] Shane's jealousy is quite cute

[36.38] Oh Carrie what are you doing there *sigh* Looking for Jonathan? Good!

[41.06] If this was ANY OTHER situation I would have found it really sweet.

[41.19] Okay...I'm not entirely sure how I feel about this scene. NO Carrie, you know how Jonathan feels about Shane you shouldn't give him hope like that. At the same time, you are giving him something to work for so...I respect you for that.

[47.08] University. And Jonathan still has his shirt...ehhehe

[50.26] Formula 17 anyone?! I love that film xD

[51.54] Shane you're being an ass again, but you're sweet.

[59.36] Carrie is so lovely, getting

[1.00.20] NOOOO please take it well...please take it well.

[1.01.17] I'm happy to hear that he's serious about her, and that he was considerate enough to think about Jonathan's exams...
[1.01.58] My poor Jonathan though :(

[1.02.40] Oh you lovely thing :(

[1.04.06] HOLD UP I don't remember this!?
[1.04.58] Oh you sweet little thiiiing.

[1.07.21] They managed to kinda sort things out. Ahahah all of their friends complain so much!

[1.10.40] Carrie looks super pretty, I'm jealous :P

[1.12.50] Oh Jonathan don't say such cruel things when you don't mean it T.T

[1.13.48] NO. WAIT. NO

[1.14.35] Oh thank god!

[1.15.46] CUUUUUUUUUUTE

[1.16.55] I'm certain he's going to fall off

[1.18.19] annnnnd I just got chills.
Epic sex scene ahead!

[1.20.49] lol Carrie way to sympathise!

[1.22.29] YOU DONT HAVE TO! Shane is so sweet, he doesnt want to lose his best friend or his girlfriend. Having 2 people in your life that you care so much about must be so hard, trying to find
balance between them both

[1.26.04] Road trip with the love triangle (ugh I just had 5 attempts at spelling 'triangle' before I finally got it right that is pretty damn embarrassing)

[1.29.39] Thus my respect for Carrie increases.

[1.30.00+] The emotional climax of the film. Its all too much for me. Jonathan loves Shane, Shane has deep feelings for Jonathan and love for Carrie. Jonathan finally confesses to Shane. Shane then reveals that he knew that Jonathan was forced to be his friend, at first he wanted to get him in trouble too like the other kids but over time be developed real feelings for his friend - a deep love that only friendship holds. What is quite upsetting is that he doesn't share Jonathan's romantic feelings

So, why 7 out of 10?
Firstly I cannot believe how biased I was last time! I mean I really did not like Carrie - I hated her because I felt that even though she knew Jonathan loved Shane she STILL dated him, I felt that was a definite betrayal.
But now I realise like Jonathan, you can't help who you fall in love with.
What I particularly liked about her was she used her position to 'help' Shane get into University. When Shane and Jonathan were fighting she removed herself from the situation allowing them to hash it out.

What I liked about this film was how, even though there is a love triangle, there was no direct jealousy...like, Jonathan and Carrie didn't want to kill each other. THAT was nice to see!
The actors are gorgeous the storyline really pulls on your heartstrings and it didn't make me want to throw myself against a wall and start sobbing! Bonus!

"But like, if you liked it so much why not a higher rating?!"
Well, for a stupid reason really. I didn't really like the ending. I felt like there was too much uncertainty, I found myself wondering 'what's going to happen now? How awkward will that car journey be on the way back?!' After Jonathan confessed and Shane said "You really are my best friend" (or something like that) the film just...stops. I didn't really like that. I would rather know, or have some feeling of hope that the characters will be okay, but...I got nothing. But everything else is really good!

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